Sometimes you have a plan for your life…. and sometimes your life has a plan for you. There are just some things that you cannot control.
I recently was laid off…. again. This time it was different. I LOVED my job. I loved the people I was working with. I loved learning new things every day…. I felt that it was my end game. But, those at a much higher pay grade than I decided that some roles in our group needed to be eliminated. It had nothing to do with my performance. My boss (and her boss), and most of the people I worked closest to, were not very happy that I was “going”…. they have all been supportive and helping me to get my resume seen at other opportunities – I am actively interviewing, but still bummed (borderline depressed), and anxious to find work again.
I have been laid off more than most…. it sucks. Although I can confidently say that it has never been based on my performance, it starts to wear on your confidence. Usually, by the time a lay-off hit – after an acquisition, or management change; the environment was toxic, that while hard to be out of work, it was almost a relief. This time was different…. I walked out of there knowing that I had done an amazing job, that I was leaving my “family”, that I was being asked to leave the role I was meant to be in. But, in true Pisces style, I am going to find the new flow to go with.
I don’t know where this plot twist will take me. I hope in another role that pushes me and helps me grow. I hope for a team that will support and help me succeed.
I know, I know…. all things happen for a reason. Enjoy the time off I get with my kids. Know that I did a great job, and made a great impact and impression…. but damn – it sucks!
I’ll just be over here, doing my thing (while secretly freaking the fuck out), waiting to figure out where the next chapter will take me.
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